WARNING: Article below contains explicit material on sexuality and controversial spiritual practices |
The Church of the Most High Goddess sought to revive the sacred-sexuality of Ancient Egypt |
Sometimes for new religions, timing is everything.
Appear too early or too late on the spiritual scene, and you
might get totally ignored. Or worse still, be persecuted into obscurity or
oblivion.
Perhaps if the Church of the Most High Goddess had emerged
in 1967 instead of 1987, it might have been fondly remembered as just one of
the self-consciously outrageous sects that shook American Puritanical
sensibilities during the countercultural explosion.
Perhaps if it had appeared in 2007, it might have joined the
erotic-freedom wing of the Goddess Spirituality movement, and been treated like
any other quasi-Tantric or “sacred-sex” group.
It was Mary Ellen and Will Tracy’s misfortune to have formed
their latter-day Temple of Sacred Prostitution in the late 1980s – too late to
share the hippie-culture cachet of sex-sects like the Psychedelic Venus Church,
but too early for “Third Wave feminism” and its message of divine female
empowerment through sexuality.
During its brief life, the Church of the Most High Goddess
managed to promote the sex-based worship of a feminine Deity via national-TV
talk shows, initiate an estimated 2,000 worshippers into its erotic mysteries, and
start a genuine legal and theological debate about how far one could stretch
the First Amendment protections in the name of religious freedom. But it lost
its battle to survive, and became yet another defunct Californian
ecclesiastical curiosity, a victim of both bad timing and legal persecution.
Mary Ellen and Will Tracy, Church of the Most High Goddess |
Founders Mary Ellen and Will Tracy were themselves adherents
of that quintessentially American new religion, Mormonism, and raised seven
children in that faith. At least, they did until Mary Ellen announced to the
local LDS Bishop’s Council that she’d discovered that certain obscure Church
teachings allowed married women to have extramarital sex. After all, polygamy
had been a core doctrine of the Church for the first fifty years of its
existence – why would God have not provided women a similar dispensation? Not
surprisingly, the Mormon authorities disagreed, and excommunicated the couple
for heresy.
Will Tracy was also courting trouble, albeit from secular
authorities. In 1984 he sued his employer, the City of Santa Monica, over a
conflict-of-interest dispute, and also tried to take ownership of a local
nude-dancing club. Unsuccessful in both ventures, the onetime folk singer and
movie producer quit his job as a building inspector, and looked for other work.
“What I experienced was beyond my conception, while my perception was completely distorted by what I had been taught was enlightenment. It was only when I set aside my prejudices--those beliefs which I had been conditioned to accept as fact, but which were in fact false--that I began to understand the experience.”
As Mormons, the Tracys had been raised to accept that an
ordinary individual could have earth-shaking divine revelations. But what they gained from the experience wasn’t
exactly what Joseph Smith and his successors might have wanted. Following Mary
Ellen’s insight about polyandry, they began to research the history of
sexuality and spirituality, and soon decided that the first and purest form of religions
was Goddess spirituality, where a female Deity was worshipped, and sexuality was
a sacrament. They believed that the ancient Egyptian cult of Isis best embodied
this path, and sought to revive her worship, with Mary Ellen as her priestess.
Although the “Goddess Revival” movement was gaining steam
during this period, the Tracys had no initial contact with the Dianic Wiccans,
or other sects that promoted feminine spirituality. Independently, they formed
The Church of the Most High Goddess in 1987, incorporating it the following
year in Nevada (albeit not as a tax-free religious group). Then Mary Ellen took
the sacred name of “Sabrina Aset,” rented a four-bedroom house in West Los
Angeles as a temple, adorned it with Egyptian symbols and a large nude portrait
of herself, and began to seek communicants.
The Church advertised in The
Hollywood Express, an adult-oriented weekly tabloid where Sabrina/Mary
Ellen wrote a regular column. Ads featured nude photos of the 40-something
Isian priestess, explained Church beliefs about sacred sexuality, and promised
“hedonistic religious rituals” to interested parties. Mary Ellen also
publicized the Church on her public-access talk show, Sabrina On, where she discussed subjects ranging from religious
freedom to gender-changing, and occasionally danced on camera clad in nothing
but in Egyptian-style jewelry.
Mary Ellen Tracy as Church Priestess/porn-star Sabrina Aset |
Prospective Church initiates were invited to the Temple.
Here’s how one source described what went on there:
There
are four parts to the ritual: Confession, Dedication, Sacrifice and
Purification/Negation. Confession is
much like you'd expect confession to be and the supplicant is expected to make
restitution in such cases as is possible before continuing with the
ritual. Once the confession has been
performed, the Dedication ritual takes place and this ritual is performed by
both women and men. The Dedication
simulates the birth position of the supplicant who places his/her head between
the legs of the priestess...and performs [cunnilingus].
Having completed successfully the Confession and Dedication stages, the supplicant is then asked to make a Sacrifice which is generally considered to be a tithe (10%) of their time or worth. Once the Sacrifice is made, the male supplicant then proceeds to the Purification/Negation section of the ritual which consists of vaginal intercourse with the priestess.... The explanation of this is that the Egyptian word for semen is pronounced 'negation' and means essence of the man. In order for the male supplicant to cleanse himself and prepare himself for Godhood in the after world, he must be willing to give up his essence to the personification of the Goddess, or the priestess.
…[A]ccording to Lady Sabrina, women supplicants undergo the same stages, yet the Purification/Negation process is different, preparing the woman for becoming a Goddess in the 'afterworld'. Qualification for initiates involves religious instruction and an assessment of their readiness to undergo the rites.
The “Sacrifice” – a mandatory $100-$200 cash offering – was
what triggered a raid on the Church. After a series of articles in their local
paper, as well as the Sally Jesse Raphael TV show, profiled the Tracys and
their revival of sacred prostitution, the LAPD set up a sting against the
Church.
In April 1989, an undercover officer visited the Temple. He
testified that Mary Ellen solicited him for oral sex there in exchange for a
$150 donation. When he refused to pay and was asked to leave, Vice officers
stormed the temple, and charged Mary Ellen with prostitution, and Will with
pimping. Four months later, the Tracys were convicted of the charges, and
sentenced to one year and six months’ in jail, respectively.
In May 1990, they appealed the conviction, claiming
religious persecution and violation of their civil and Constitutional rights. US
District Judge William M. Byrne, Jr. dismissed their case, saying that the
Church of the Most High Goddess “has no basis to it other than sexual conduct,”
remarking that its rituals “were also planned, conceived and put into
operation…to make detection of actual plans more difficult.” Judge Byrne also
noted that Mary Ellen had been arrested for prostitution two times before the
Church was formed, and opined that its ads and publicity efforts weren’t
genuine appeals to religious devotion but rather, “invitations – enticements if
you will – to the effect that ‘I love sex.’”
Still fighting the convictions, Mary Ellen found time to not
only continue her cable-TV show, but to also appear on national TV. In January
1992, she was interviewed on the Phil Donahue and Montel Williams shows, where
she explained Goddess-oriented sacred prostitution and defended her practice of
the same. She also starred in two adult films of the era, Club Head 2 and Positively
Pagan 6.
In one interview, Mary Ellen/Sabrina claimed to be the 537th
High Priestess in a line of temple courtesans going all the way back to 3200 BC
in Egypt (Cleopatra had been #469). She testified to her work thusly:
In my calling as a
priestess, I have sex with men of all sizes, shapes, colors, backgrounds,
professions -- an infinite variety -- every day, several times a day (and even
more often would be better). To date I've had vaginal sex with over 2,779
different men, oral sex with over 4,000 different men, and being bisexual, I
have eaten a couple of hundred pussies along the way. Since I'm a very sexual
person, I've had sex, not just in the religious rituals, but in a wide variety
of places in addition to the usual bedrooms, sofas, chairs and back and front
seats of cars - like doctor's examination tables, college professor's offices,
faculty lounges, dormitories, showers, swimming pools, Jacuzzi, beaches, woods,
tents, campers, business offices, back rooms of stores, warehouses, rest rooms,
government offices, parking lots, trucks, elevators, on the hood of cars, in
adult films--on and off camera. I've even sucked cocks through the open window
of my car and through a hole in a wall. No! I hadn't met the men before. Men
hit on me everywhere I go and I'm not one to pass up an opportunity to enjoy
myself sexually.
Her flamboyance, as well as the Church’s pay-to-play policy, disturbed
more orthodox Goddess worshippers and neo-Pagans. On an Internet discussion
group sponsored by the Covenant of the Goddess, some posters noted that “name”
Pagans like Aidan Kelly had appeared alongside Mary Ellen on the Montel
Williams show, lending her what they felt was an undeserved legitimacy. The
Tracys, they believed, were just middle-aged neurotics working out their Mormon
sexual repression – look at the quasi-Christian “Confession” aspect of their
ritual, they said. Others defended their practices, saying that, aside from the
Church’s commercial aspect, it was a legitimate revival of Goddess-based sacred
sex, and that the Tracys deserved some consideration for their efforts.
After serving five and two-and-a-half months of their
respective jail sentences, Mary Ellen and Will Tracy fought one more legal
battle to clear their names, and establish sacred prostitution as a protected
religious practice. In Sabrina Aset v.
Garcetti, they took the Los Angeles County District Attorney to court,
demanding that they be granted a legal exemption to the anti-prostitution laws.
According to the Tracys, they were training new priestesses
for the Church. Each priestess was required to have sex with 100 different men
before she could be fully initiated into the sect, and they feared that their
new charges would also be arrested and jailed if modern temple courtesanship
remained illegal. Once again, the Tracys lost their suit; when they appealed to
the state Supreme Court two years later, the justices refused to hear the case.
By that time, ironically enough, professional sacred
sexuality was coming into its own via the Internet, and the advent of more
sex-positivity in both Feminist spirituality and the mass culture. Web-based
“Tantric Priestesses” and “Dakinis” openly advertised their services as sacred
courtesans, often showing video clips of themselves and their worshippers
performing the same acts that landed Mary Ellen in the Sybil Brand women’s
jail. In conservative Arizona, the Phoenix Goddess Temple’s “Mystic Sisters”
offered “full-body healing services” for offerings from $200-800 out of a
suburban home far more opulently appointed than the Tracy’s rented edifice. It
was apparent that the Church, like so many other offbeat spiritual groups, had
been ahead of its time.
Few traces of the Church of the Most High Goddess remain
today save for a Web site, www.goddess.org.
Therein are collected the Tracy’s writings on Goddess spirituality, sexuality,
and the intersection of the same. Perhaps because of their experiences at the hands
of the State, many of the essays have a distinctly bitter tone, excoriating
patriarchal civilizations and the Abrahamic religions for destroying the sacred
erotic culture of the ancient world and instilling 5,000 years of repressive,
anti-sex, anti-pleasure attitudes in the human race. Yet a hopeful note is
sounded in another one, where the author speaks of the long-awaited return of
“The Lady of the New Dawn” and her sex-positive faith, and concludes with “I
have arrived.”
And She seems to have arrived indeed—at least, for the
countless thousands of Tantric priestesses, Goddess-worshipping neo-bacchantes,
and others whose sacred-sexuality practices have dodged the sad fate of the
Church of the Most High Goddess.
Sources
Los Angeles Times, April 16, 1989. "Is Church Old-Time Religion or Prostitution? Arrested Canyon Country Couple Claim Beliefs Involve Sex for Sacrifices"
"Report on Neopaganism: Sexuality and Spirituality," by Tyagi NagaSiva.
New York Times, May 2, 1990. "Religion Based on Sex Gets a Judicial Review"